Purple Gerbera

2009-11-02T18:10:00.002+02:00

i wanted to be there for you.
but then again, presence is overrated.

2008-05-06T20:29:00.002+03:00

I cannot understand your kind. One day you're stunned the next you're blind.

Always tried to cut myself from everything bonding with you,

I just never figured out where to find the clue. The one you used to tag the false from true.

I'm taking time to watch the flowers blossom. Baby, don't you know you've got to do this, too?

It's not all about the power and progression.

Thought life's about sacrifices, make them just for you.

2008-05-06T20:26:00.001+03:00

te-nvarti prin ochii mei, cazand de tot in ei
prin semne triste, de-ntrebare,
urlete mute, de uitare.

te voi face sa vibrezi,
ca sa poti sa ma ajungi.
te voi lasa sa ma pierzi,
visurile sa le-alungi.

astept inc-un strop de venin,
de sange fin, cu gust de vin,
un strop din limita placerii,
o adiere-a mangaierii.

2008-04-21T15:21:00.001+03:00

drag me near you,
I like being controlled
smile sardonic,
I'll laugh when you'll be hold
in my chains, my arms,
taste just a bit of me.
I'll leave a mark right unto your heart.
I'll scratch your silky skin,
my nails will feel your blood,
you'll feel me deep within.
smile, and enter in.

2008-04-14T22:26:00.004+03:00

ceasul mai ticaie o data

si-odata cu el moare unul din noi

sau suna doar alarma, poate?

iti iei noii papuci si mergi dupa lopata

sa-ngropi sufletele lor toate

oricum la sfarsit vom ramane doar doi

2008-04-14T22:23:00.004+03:00

aren't you on your wrong way home?
don't you have a fire there to warm you better than I do?
'Cause the last time this is what you let me believe.
go, go and leave me.
live without me
burn out within me

2008-04-14T22:13:00.002+03:00

Cine te-ai crezut tu sa-mi intri-n paradis si sa ma lasi fara gânduri?
Sa fugi in abis pierdut cu un vis plin de-ale mele frânturi?

2008-04-09T19:20:00.002+03:00

Cum sa poti zambi,
Cand doar tipete poti auzi
Cand doar ploaia te poate linisti
Cand plangi trezindu-te in zori de zi

Si iar furia ma cuprinde
Si frustrarea ca nu am plecat cand trebuia
Cand lumea trebuia sa fie a mea,
Stau iar, si somnul ma prinde...

2008-03-15T21:37:00.001+02:00

what makes you think your words hurt me anyway?
they're just waste of time, and you know they aren't true.
and I thank you for the gratitude for all I've done for you
guess time erases all, it throws feelings away...

2008-02-21T20:21:00.002+02:00

Tobele bat tot mai încet, mai încet, tot mai rar, mai rar...Pe fundal se aude extazul publicului, tobele încetinesc... Publicul ţipă! Publicul aclamă! Linişte....Deodată pe fundal se aud tobele. Bass-ul. O chitară. Publicul e înnebunit... Şi începe o dezordine de idei totală...
Stai! Nu era bass-ul. Era aparatul de resurscitare.
Nu era chitara. Era sirena salvării.
Nu erau tobele, erau batăile inimii ei.
Publicul... Neuronii afundaţi in supradoză.
Tobosarul îşi terminǎ solo-ul dinamic şi publicul în extaz redă un ultim răcnet frenetic.
Bass-ul mai oferă şi el un solo foarte scurt, iar la încheierea concertului abia se mai aude chitara de pe fond.
Ea...Ea era în partea din faţă a publicului de la concert,dar nu au ajuns destul de repede.
-Păcat, că’ era fată tanară... zise unul din şoferii ambulanţei.

„Minunat show! Desi scurt, minunat!”
„Mă bucur că ţi-a placut, doar l-ai condus cum ai vrut. Sper că a meritat toate astea.”
„Ce vrei să spui?”
„Ce te face sa crezi că dacă nu ai respectat acordul vei mai performa în localul meu?”
„Păi... credeam că...”
„Dupa atatea eforturi, chiar am crezut că vei ajunge aproape de perfecţiune.”
„Iartă-mă, Te rog!”
„Dura lex, sed lex! O vei lua de la inceput, ca orice artist care nu-şi cunoaste talentul şi-l găseste abia după ce şterge praful de pe trotuare şi-ţi va trebui la fel de mult efort să ajungi aici din nou.”

Şi, uitând unde am ajuns, am luat-o de la început, pierzându-mă în gânduri demne de oamenii pe care într-o zi învaţasem să-i ocolesc.

2008-02-02T19:32:00.000+02:00

"That's what you get if you let your heart win"
That's what you always will...
It will pass, again, as it did before.

2008-01-01T23:23:00.000+02:00

Ma simt folosita.
"De prima oara sau de prea multe ori?"
Nici una. Desi stiu ca o data nu-ti ajunge, de prea multe ori o sa devina monoton. Mai bine ne oprim la mijloc.

(Si, suflandu-si nasul pentru ultima oara, arunca batista printre frunze...)

"Fara tine o sa ma racesc..."
Ai fost rece intotdeauna...

2007-12-16T18:51:00.001+02:00

You'll never find me at the end of your tunnel,
Cause there never is a good way at the crossroads,
My way is the longest,
Enhanced by your searches,
I'm in a dead end, towards hell.

2007-12-14T22:47:00.002+02:00

Indeparteaza-te de mine,
Mai lasa-ma odata fara ajutor
Eu in brate nu te mai pot prinde,
Du-te! Spune-i sa-ti citeasca iar
Cuvinte fara autor.

Eu mai raman in ploaia ta o vreme,
Poate-ti vei aminti ca inca mai exist.
Inca-nghet in culori reci in camara,
Si te mai pictez cu ceata
Condensata-n calimara.

Ce proasta!...Nici nu-mi dadeam seama ce rece-i la tine-n scara...
Si am racit si eu langa balta noastr-amara...

2007-12-02T21:59:00.002+02:00

This day
I wanted nothing but a flower
From you.
Unfortunately though,
I haven't even seen
My way
Trough the shower
Of tears
My fears
Have bring me 'til this hour.

2007-11-11T21:19:00.003+02:00

I'd better remain with my feelings,
than turn them into cold frustration,
I'd rather kill my willings,
and take them to another nation

I know i can't keep your cold words,
and make them darken lyrics,
I cannot keep my wings,
they've gone to some other spirits...

2007-11-11T21:16:00.001+02:00

"din ce esti facut tu ?"
"eu? praf cosmic, argint viu si-o lacrima de-a ta ce a cazut..."
"si ce vrei ?"
"sa-mi continui drumul intrerupt de tine atunci cand ai decis sa stergi ..."
"... ?"
" tot ce te-a facut acum ceea ce esti... iubirea pentru el..."
"stergand o lacrima de pe fata nu inseamna ca poti sterge si sentimente... "
"poate, dar acum aceasta lacrima e ascunsa intr-o raza de soare.... nimeni nu mai stie de ea...nimeni nu o vede... nimeni nu o simte... si eu uit uneori de ea..."

2007-11-11T21:12:00.000+02:00

are you sure you're gonna be there when I need you ?
or you're just another lie swimming through a thousand tears?
will your arms be opened for the touch blue ?
or they're opened just so she could live without fears?

2007-11-11T21:06:00.001+02:00

...
"because I need you"
"because you need me ?are you capable of taking all this just because you need me ?"
"this? I see you don't know me very well...for you I'd take the whole universe...although you don't need the universe... you only need "them", and their number gets bigger by each day"
"you might be right... I don't need the universe, and you, you're not part of my universe, but you're part of "them"... so I guess I need you too"
"don't be silly, but it's nice you pretend you do"
"I'll be there when your heart stops beating!!"
(as she turns around and leaves)
"such a fool, he couldn't see my heart stopped beating the moment I became one of them"

2007-11-11T21:02:00.000+02:00

it's so hard for me to forgive
and it's not because i'm made of stone
but i feel the guilt instead of you
and i cannot let it go.

2007-11-11T21:01:00.000+02:00

and why is everybody fake?
what did i do to make you shake
all my world...? and then just go
this quantity is just to low,
i wanted more, a mind that's high
a step further, a reason to fly...

2007-11-04T22:21:00.000+02:00

huh... stop messing with my life
can't you just mind your own?
or are you too afraid of breaking it to pieces?
cause when you start telling what to do
i say
it won't do
just get a loan
and clean your faces.

2007-11-01T21:00:00.000+02:00

Burn for me tonight
Like the cigarette you forgot to pull from
Born for me tonight
Dark desires
Come!
I long for cutting
Your wires.

2007-10-29T20:37:00.000+02:00

"Si te gaseam in fiecare por al meu, te simteam in fiecare pas cu care ma indepartam de tine."
"Plecai?"
"Nu, tu ma impingeai cat mai departe de tine. Te atingeam doar din greseala, sau poate din reflex."
"Si eu?"
"Tu zambeai si nu ai observat ca am ajuns la marginea acoperisului."
"Ai cazut?"
"Nu. Am zburat."

2007-10-28T21:30:00.000+02:00

M-ai razuit ca ceara de pe lumanarea
Ce doar la flacara ta arde.
Si ai lasat fumul sa curga
In ploaia mea.
Trecand
Nepasator prin balta
De parca n-ai fi fost si tu odata
Un fitil
Incandescent.

2007-10-28T21:17:00.000+02:00

Useless to say we're going my way.
Tonight you're allowed to take my hand.
Just a moment of weakness, you don't have to bend.
Pretend I was nice the whole road to the bay.

So here we are. Any special request? As far as my oppinion
I'd like you to lay
With me, on the sand, be my guest.
Tonight the dinner's on me.
Make of this reunion your own feast.

2007-10-28T18:46:00.001+02:00

So I constantly step unto my heart for no reason. And?
Is not that I don't like you, don't judge me wrong, it's just that when I have to much love in my hands I tend to smash it, just to feel lonely again, just to cry again, to be able to drown myself in sorrow and mudd. As much as I love you, I don't care how you're going to take it. Tonight I'm barely lugging, my knees just can't stop bleeding.I must raise.I must escape. Just one night. I'll drink, I'll scream, I'll crawl, I'll kill. Don't judge me. Just shut up and love me.
Tomorrow I'll kneel before you again...

alcohol, my friend

2007-10-26T19:39:00.001+03:00

dear friend,
i know i haven't seen you for like... 2 weeks... and it's hard for me to meet you again, but you and i know that the last time when i had you near, we had special times together, we danced, we shared thoughts, we did unconscious things that i'm not sorry about. And now, having you near again, i know, like always, you will heal my wounds, you will help me make a decision, you make me think clear... 'cause: "when it's just me and you, who knows what we could do? if we can just make it through, the thoughest part of the day..."